勇气

我向来都不喜欢自己一个人
虽然有时候会想独处
可是我不喜欢长时间这样
每次哭都要躲起来哭
都不敢让他知道
因为跟他说，他又会想多多
想多多就无法专心工作
越想越多还可能放弃工作，来澳洲陪我

唉
真的很难过
一个人去上课
一个人去买吃的
一个人去菜市场
一个人读书
弟弟跟室友常常很迟回家
我又要一个人
这间家又每次都有怪声音
我自己又胆小到死
怕到要死

怎么办 =(
现在又有怪声音
我很怕 T.T

One of my favorite singer: Mindy Gledhill

Crazy Love

by:: Mindy Gledhill

Nobody knows that I am a secret spy
I follow you home, careful to walk behind you
I climb up your tree and hide in the leaves
To keep you from seeing who I am 

Call me obsessed, but I need to know your name
Your age, your address and where in the world you came from
It’s silly to think that I’m on the brink
Of falling right off my rocker 

Oh, I want to know
All about your mom and your favorite song
And why you hypnotize me
Well, I tell you what
I’m the definition of obsessive-compulsive, crazy love 

Late after dark, your light is on upstairs
And I watch you dance as if you were Fred Astaire
A little finesse, a sparkly dress
And I could be Ginger Rogers 

Oh, I want to know
All the books you read and your favorite sweets
And why you hypnotize me
Well, I tell you what
I’m the definition of obsessive-compulsive, crazy 

La, la, la I’m like a firefly
La, la, la in the evening sky
I’m all aglow whenever I see you walking by 

Oh, I want to know
If you ever plan to hold my hand
And why you hypnotize me
Well, I tell you what
I’m the definition of
Obsessive-compulsive crazy love

ohhh i love this song so so much!

I love Mindy Gledhill 

=D

Literally, All her songs are very nice!! <3

I do adore

Whole wide world

This is my song

All about your heart

(Y)

最讨厌的“再见”

我不敢相信时间过得有多快

我更不相信我就这样回到这里了

昨天全家人送机，他也是

我完全没有想哭的意念，可是你们有

我昨天整天都嘻嘻哈哈的，可是我知道你们心情很沉重

有时我在想，哎哟喂呀，你们不是应该开心点，不让我哭么？

怎么是我要逞强，tsk tsk tsk 很不对咯你们 XD

其实，老早以前，我人还在大马时已经开始想象没有你的日子

哭也哭过了，只是不知道为什么回到来这里会哭得这么厉害

我弟啦！我本来没有很想哭，他又骂我 T.T 然后我就流泪了 T.T

唉，其实也没什么好难过的，只是很舍不得很舍不得而已

今年一定很stress，一定很！都得靠自己了 =(

我的目标还是straight HDs，当然还有减肥 =p ! 或许我这个学期真的能达成了，

因为没有人陪我瞎搅和，我可能每天都去混图书馆而已。

哈哈哈哈哈哈我又想哭了 T.T 我的妈呀 去死啦！！

最让我舍不得的人类 ='(

有你们真好！

<3

还有最不舍得我们 Wednesday gang! 

为了和你们一起唱K，看戏，吃饭，就算跑到老远载你们也甘愿 =')

我跟你前世一定是姐妹！

默契好得惊人man XD

我亲爱的brrrraaahhh / 老公

嘻嘻

最爱是你了

很喜欢听你唱歌

很喜欢看你乍到的样子 XD

前途加油！ =)

last but not least

傻佬一只

一言难尽

又爱又恨

恨多过爱

哈哈哈哈

没有啦 =p 

担心我一个人搞不dim

可是却又要拼事业

你讲完咯

讨厌 ><

我可以的咯okay

独立得不得了 =p

kthxbye :p

Words

                                                       

                                                     WORDS

by:: Skylar Grey

Always in a rush
Never stay on the phone long enough
Why am I so self-important?
Said I'd see you soon
But that was, oh, maybe a year ago
Didn't know time was of the essence

So many questions
But I'm talking to myself
I know that you can't hear me any more
Not anymore
So much to tell you
And most of all goodbye
But I know that you can't hear me any more

It's so loud inside my head
With words that I should have said
And as I drown in my regrets
I can't take back the words I never said
I never said
I can't take back the words I never said

Always talking shit
Took your advice and did the opposite
Just being young and stupid
I haven't been all that you could've hoped for
But if you'd held on a little longer
You'd have had more reasons to be proud

So many questions
But I'm talking to myself
I know that you can't hear me any more
Not anymore
So much to tell you
And most of all goodbye
But I know that you can't hear me any more

It's so loud inside my head
With words that I should have said
And as I drown in my regrets
I can't take back the words

The longer I stand here
The louder the silence
I know that you're gone but sometimes I swear that I hear
Your voice when the wind blows
So I talk to the shadows
Hoping you might be listening 'cos I want you to know

It's so loud inside my head
With words that I should have said
And as I drown in my regrets
I can't take back the words I never said
I never said
I can't take back the words I never said
Never said
I can't take back the words I never said

很常有一股冲动想驾着车，漫无目的地开，整理思绪

可是，我就是缺了那20秒的勇气，只敢想，不敢做 =(

Updates #9

Its been a month since im back!

So far so good lah =D

get to see the kids

get to meet my friends

but I feel different

its not a good different 

nor a bad different

just

weird different

Don't know how to explain

its depressing sometimes

but I just don't know how and couldn't explain the feeling in words

sigh

don't mention about unhappy stuff lah

let y'all see my fat and happy face XD

*picture heavy* IMO :p

Christmas party, the kids and i

Bestie and I

lol actually I feel awkward and shy around girls 
I don't know how to make girl friends!!!! T.T

don't know why =.=

Christmas caroling

three angels <3

AHHHHH sooooo cute!!! =D

The NG's family! Its been awhile =)

The people whom I cherish the most!

Went for badminton with the siblings <3

Genting trip with these great people!

Had fun eventhough we didn;t really do much

hahaha

Vivian girl girl!!!

My heart melts everytime she calls jie jie~

the cutest baby ever!!!!!

One of my favorite pic at the Lavender farm! hehe

Beauties and the beasts XD

I love this picture too =)

My favorite juniors <3

NYE!!

and chris succeed in proposing!! WEEEEE =D

Will U Marry Me <3

(Love this pic alot)

ngggaaaawwwwww

shooooo sweet =D

Darling and I =)

Glad that we still can talk like the old times

I missed you my friend <3

Retarded Kern Wen and Leon!!

Love them so so much!

They tease alot about me being fat, but I know deep down, they love me very much! XD

Adele, Jason, Me, Kern Wen and Leon!

Steven and Pax missing! 

made a promise that all of us must meet up one day =D

muaaaahhhhh! <3

Goodbye 2012, Hello 2013!

Happy New Year!! Hahaha this is a long-overdue post! Had alot of activites during the past weeks! Exhausting but super fun!! =D hehehehe anyway, 2012 was meh! There were alot of ups and downs. Okay, keep it short, basically.. I'm glad that year 2012 is over, nuff said. =D 

Here is a list of my TOP 12 of 2012.

1. New apartment!

The reason I left Malaysia early last year was to settle into my new apartment. Moving house is such a pain in the ass! No joke =.= It took us quite a while to unbox everything, big thanks to my bf because I had a panic attack after I saw how many boxes of stuff I had T.T

Hmmm overall, its a nice apartment even though the only source of 

sunlight we get is from the balcony =.=

2. Valentine's Day

Best Valentine's Day so far! Appreciate all the effort he put into preparing all the surprises =D

Thank you so much for your love and care my dear <3

3. Risky electives

Made a huge decision in selecting student electives last year. Took Human Physiology 1 & 2, Biochemistry blah blah blah. Its a risk for my overall GPA score because my course was all about food technology and food chemistry. Not that im not familiar with biology, its just that, all these while my Biology grades are no where near a distinction =s But thank god lah, my results were satisfying =D and of course, all the lecturers and demonstrators were outstanding! Very helpful and knowledgeable, I even thought of changing course because I love the teaching environment very much =D lol credits to Paula, John Hawley, Danielle, Bruce Byrne, Martin Stebbing, Richard Guy, etc etc

<3

4. Journey to Bundoora

All my electives took place in RMIT Bundoora, about 70 tram stops away from where I live T.T approximately 80 minutes tram ride, 5 minutes walk from tram station to class. Tram is one of the worst transportation on earth! Spent most of my final semester in Bundoora! 

I love this place!

My favorite lecture theatre!

<3

5. Weight gaining

Gained ~4kg. Nuff said =.=

6. Big Yee

Bf's aunt came to visit us for ~3months! So, why is it so blog worthy about her visit? hahaha she helped us alot! Clean the house! Cook meals! Life is easy when she's around XD

7. Less Shopping

Huge improvement in terms of controlling myself from buying stuff! I am a shopaholic, couldn't resist from buying things when i visit the stores =(

8. I discovered the person I dislike the most in my life!!

Okay lah I should not highlight such a hateful event in my top12, but this person brought me too much troubles throughout the whole year! He is the lousiest man I have ever encountered! Seriously T.T He taught me an important lesson, never, NEVER judge a book by its cover. Sigh

9. Quality Assurance


I have mixed feeling about this subject, its super challenging, fun and stress subject! Wonderful hands on experience, and I can foresee how far this course could bring me to. Basically this course could find me a stable job with pretty decent pay =)
We worked in a team throughout the whole semester, constructing a QA manual for our designated product which is chocolate mousse, everything from ordering, receival and storage of raw material, to cleaning and preparation of ingredients, to operation of the equipments, to packaging and then to the final presentation of the product. Our ultimate job is to make sure every single step is safe for consumer. hehehehe quite like it =)

LOL us with the hairnets! Taken during the final production! Nervous max! But thank god that the industrial assessor was nice! and he liked us! =D

Things would be perfect if the team consist only three of us! Hahaha awesome people! =D

Our final product! =)

10. Satisfying results

My third year final semester ended with a satisfying results, not necessarily straight HDs, but good enough for me =) Thank you lord for all your blessings <3


11. Sydney

Ronald came over! and we went Sydney! That was my second visit! Too bad, Bernard wasn't able to join us =(

Us at the entrance of Taronga Zoo, this is by far, the best zoo I've visited, well organized, super clean and most importantly, all the animals were awake XD

Mah boy and I at Sydney's Opera House =)

Best thing about Ronald being there was to be our cameraman XD

OHHHHH Bondi Beach, words can't describe how beautiful this place is!

Clean environment, white and soft sands <3

I love love love this place!!

We managed to book a hotel right infront of Bondi Beach through a scoopon deal!

AHHHHH 

Dear Bondi, I will visit you again!!

Hello from Fatty XD

sorry lah no bikini, too fat

St. Mary's Cathedral

It's really huge and the architecture is really beautiful!! 

Too bad we weren;t allowed to take pictures!

Visited here during 2008 World Youth's Day =)

Can't wait to visit more churches!

12. Chris proposal

Last but not least, my buddy's wedding proposal! This happened epicly during the last day of 2012! Shoooooooooo swwwweeeeeettt!! Couldn't wait for their wedding already!! ;)

Buddy and Ah Sou =)

Helped out with the candles! Sooooo romantic! Ngaaaawwww

And there goes my boring and simple year 2012

=)