Thoughts #1

I have been neglecting my blog

I know

and I was really BUSY

busy with playing!! muahahahahaha

hmmm

I've tried writing a super long post with loads of photos

and I failed

and failed

and failed

and i gave up -_-

seriously

hate the new blogger system thingy

can't you just keep everything simple??!

if you keep upgrading

don't blame me for dumping you and go for others k?

anyway

hmmm

got a phone call today from one of my old friends

my dance crew teammates actually

hmmm

i felt happy at first

but I feel disgusted + sad + hurt

after knowing that

they, my friends that I truly care about

ring me up ONLY when they want to get some benefits from me

this feeling sucks

but its so real and true

eh PLEASE?

at least fake some *miss me* feeling for me can or not?

i mean seriously 

what the fuck?!

And the other incident was

hmmm

i have a friend

or maybe i should say

ex-friend

from my third high school i went

we had lots of common interests

I really thought we could make really good and close friends

until i started to teach the guys volleyball

and yea

this was when jealousy made everything changed

oh well things happened

and we are no longer friends

met her at a friend's 21st bday

and she's still looking at me the same way as she did three years ago

OH COME ON

it's been 3years Ms.!!

hmmmm

maybe "Friends Forever" is just not my thing

people do come and go

even those you thought he or she will be there for you always!

 I do feel upset

I couldn't help it but to accept that this is the REALITY

and appreciate what I have now

After all,

I don't think I would put soooo much effort on friendship as I did in the past anymore

and I do think that family and boyfriend are all you have

when you are in pain or facing difficulties

hmmmm

 this is life

*sigh*

I think We make a perfect couple!

*4th year together*

and we will work hard to make sure that there will be

5th, 6th, 7th.....etc years

Love you

muacks <3