Saturday, June 2, 2012

咯哩叭嗦之 - 我不是我


不久前跟一个朋友聊天吃午餐,问起了她为什么那么少上脸书,因为真的很奇怪,现在是脸书时代耶,她怎么都没有在跟风? =.=


她说了一句:上脸书让我不开心。


我顿时愣着了。那瞬间,所有心底的不满,不开心同时涌了上来。她是这里的永久居民,去年才搬来,她是一个很好的朋友,是个大好人 =D 









她说她不喜欢看到朋友在马来西亚过得多好多好,这样只会让她不开心。
我不想那么快就同意她的说法,想安慰安慰她,就回她说:“你每年都可以回去看她们啊!”
她却说了:“又怎样?她们心里说想我想我,可是实际上我们之间的距离的确是越来越     远了。”

惨了,怎么说出了我的心底话,忍无可忍地道出了所有的不满。单纯直率的她,也跟着咬牙切齿地点头表示赞同。

唉,没错,的确是那样。就算你每6个月回去一次,陌生感都会有增无减。人家时常见面,一起做活动,一起说笑,你这出了国的人哪里懂那些inside jokes? 就连我弟妹跟好朋友,他们都有自己的inside jokes,靠,真不知道该为了他们处得很好而感到开心;还是该该觉得伤心,因为他们跟她感情比跟我这亲姐姐来得好。

那种背叛的感觉,就好像男朋友有心事,但我却不是第一个知道的那种心情。不爽。不爽到极点。






来到这里都不知道抱怨了多少次。可是,我真的觉得好孤独。
真的真的真的好孤 独 。
孤单到我真的很想与世隔绝。
孤单到我都忘了自己以前是个怎样的人。
孤单到我好像有点习惯了。













快要考试了,再过两个星期,还剩一年我就毕业了。真的不知道以后该干什么?好想干脆嫁掉算了。从此过着俩人幸福快乐的生活,活在只有彼此的世界里,什么都不要想,什么都不想懂,什么都不想听,什么都不想看。

可是怎办?那是不可能的,他老爸不是比尔盖兹,没有本钱带我到世外桃源 T.T






Sunday, May 13, 2012

咯哩叭嗦之 - 不想当钱的奴隶



很多朋友都踏出社会工作了,每个人的命运就好象老早就定下了,小学>中学>大学>社会大学
男朋友也是一天到晚打工打工,对生活上所有的支出都精打细算,他收到工资时候的那个笑容,是我这辈子看过最灿烂的笑容=.= 当然开心咯,这里的钱是马来西亚的3倍叻!而且工作轻松环境优良,谁不会笑?

我知道,很多人都说有钱虽然不是万能,但没钱就万万不能;我很懂这道理!有一个朋友曾经说过,他不喜欢迟迟才踏入社会的人,是,很多人中学就开始打工,我想他们也不愿意的吧?是情势所逼,谁会想要那么年轻就陷于现实社会的沼泽地?这点真的让我对自己的未来感觉很迷茫,很害怕。

女强人,女强人,很多女生都说长大以后要当个女强人,更有很多人说男女平等,女生一定要有自己的一番事业才会有安全感。哪来的安全感?钱咯!唉。。试问每个女强人背后,有多少辛酸,要付出多少的青春呐?

或许很多看了我上面那番话的人会觉得我娇宠惯养,我父母有能力不用我自己打工;说真的,我父母没有钱,很穷,是我有钱,因为他们都把自己辛辛苦苦赚来的钱都花在我的身上。我很感激,我算了算他们用在我身上的钱,是我一辈子都还不完的。

唉。。说来说去,都没重点,到最后还不是得乖乖地念完书,找份稳定的工作,然后赚钱养家 =.=




Friday, May 11, 2012

Updates #6

LOL Hello ;) I got nothing much to say, no photos, no nothing. This pretty much concluded how boring my life is. Finals coming, in less than 3 weeks time, OMGGGGGG!!! Couldn't believe how fast time flies! Its almost faster than the speed of light =.= LOL XD

Anyway, life here is boring max, but relax max, hahaha no friends mah, what to do =.= Everyday wake up, brush up, go to the uni, see the same faces, say hi, then bye, come home, same faces again, youtube, facebook, online "monitor" shopping, sleep, then the same routine all over again. sigh

Still deciding whether to go home or not, haha was so lucky that my flight actually falls on the same day i finish my exams, midnight flight btw. DILEMMAAAAAA

Oh well, im glad that things have settled down abit, excluding the fact that someone actually stolen my iPhone 4!!!!! @.@ screw that girl man, CHERRY CHOI Jia Ying, I'm not going to report to the police, but I hope this guilt will hunt you forever, muahahahahaha LOL so bad =.= jk lah, i forgive you, but I will not forget you!!! gggrrrr

k lah, nothing to say dy...ciaoz ;)

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

看回过去我每一段故事,每一张照片
错过很多,做错很多
发现我这个人很后知后觉
很爱做会让自己后悔的事情
很多很多很多的遗憾
都是自己拿来的
或许那个人说得对
我真的很应该下地狱。




Thursday, March 15, 2012

ADELE WONG

Happy birthday ADELE WONG!! OMG sorry I am late!! but I have good reason!! Stupid youtube very slow !! =( Really sorry =( Hope you will like it though =)

Please proceed to http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0ECMaDhTsgI&feature=youtu.be

Remember to sign in youtube first =)

Love,
ME =)

Monday, March 12, 2012

Rants and thoughts

Hmm how should I start this blogpost? I have been getting weird questions from people around me. Not those "abuden" questions, like hmmm, I understand sometimes they really need help, and I say yes most of the time. But, when it comes to stuff that they actually can do or find out the solution themselves, I really have to think about it lo! Like for example, the laziest person in the world - my cute younger brother BERNARD!

"Jie, can you help me to wash the plates, please?'
"Jie, how to use the printer?"
"Jie, the toilet very dirty lah"
Jie, our house very messy lah" 
"Jie, I am very hugry."
"Jie, how to pay my uni fees?"

"Jie, how to do this, how to do that?"

He is always seeking for answers but not the solutions, he doesn't even wants to try solving problems himself. He isn't the only one though, some of my friends too. I don't understand at all!!

"Hey, where is the prac lab manual/lecture notes?"
(well obviously, its in the blackboard, hello?)

"Hey, which prac group am I in?"
(eh, how the hell would I know?you think what? I am more than an encyclopedia, who knows everything, even everyone's student numbers?)


 its okay if they've tried, but failed, I will help, for sure.
I asked my brother:" Why can't you try solving things before jumping straight into answers?"

He questioned me back :" Why can't you make my life easier?" 

OMG, how could you ma fan other people just to make your life easier? Seriously? Google is one of the best things in the world, why don't you fully utilize it?! 

Sometimes, I feel really sick by spending my free time just to do someone's favour, while they are enjoying their "easy" life out there =.= 

Haih, guess I should learn how to say NO, in a friendly way ;( 



Monday, March 5, 2012

Hello March



Finally finally finally!! its March!! Everything settled and almost perfect!! there is this little thing still bothering me, not gonna share it here, but oh well~ It isn't a big deal anyway! Semester4 has officially started! and it started perfectly!! I miss the kids ;) I am still a kakak to them although I don't act like one =p I love ALL the courses I am taking this semester, Carbohydrates, Lipids, Nutrition 2 and Human Physiology!! woootss!! Very very very challenging!

 hmmm, I shouldn't have high expectations in previous semesters, I think I was possessed lah =.= Too many unpleasant memories back then. Brainwashed myself during last summer holiday, and here I am now! A brand new ME =) muahahaHAHAHA

I actually prefer angmohs in this batch lah, much more friendly and nice =) tsk tsk tsk Oh and a friend told me that RMIT has only one graduation period! Which is in summer!! Bad thing is, I have to wait for a few months, good thing is, I get to join the kids!! XD 

Okay lah I am going to post some random photos =p


This is how my  apartment looked like before we unpack our stuff



    

Look at the amount of things I have!! @.@


Lazy bump!!


It was so dusty! Thanks mummy! I always blame her for stuffing extra useless stuff into my luggage,
now I know why ;)


The boys unboxing

Went Mook Ji Bar with Cynthia Loh!

so cute lah she <3




Cynthia and Justin came over and we had steamboat!

the Mr. Forever Alone XD




Played Kinect
very fun!!




Met Yu-Ann!!
She's my neighbour and friend since kindergarten!!


Okay I know it looks kinda mehhh
but its super nice lo okay! =p




Sticky notes on my wall


One of my Valentine's Day present


Valentine's Day surprise
best lah!
appreciate his effort <3



one of the kids
Lydia
<3 <3